The following is a metacognitive rant.
I’ve been thinking recently about a movie from my childhood: A Lot Like Love. I remember watching this mid 2000’s, largely forgotten romantic comedy as a teenager and falling hard for the dysfunctional characters and their sloppy, flawed attempts to grow into their adult selves and achieve their goals and dreams. The simple plot spans seven years, as a smattering of reunions between Oliver and Emily (Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet) punctuate each person’s attempts to ‘get their ducks in a row’. It’s cute, often funny, occasionally sweet, and, in my experience, lands somewhere near the heart of what it means to make the transition into adulthood.
‘This is your life. Right now. It doesn’t wait for you to get back on your feet.’ Someone in the film says this to Oliver. It might be the only line from the film I can pull out of my memory.
I repeat this line to myself when I find I’m afraid or unsure of how to make a decision. The default of inaction, I often find, is cleverly disguised as waiting for a clear answer. Maybe this is a prudent, wise discipline for some people. But for someone like me, who fears a decision will be wrong even before she has made it, the ‘carpe diem’ sentiment is much needed.
Oliver and Emily sped seven years pushing each other away, waiting for the rest of their lives to be in order, waiting for their relationship to be an easy, obvious choice, only to find their quest for assurance was fruitless. Life doesn’t follow the chronology you expect, and she certainly doesn’t wait until you think you’re prepared and have found a balanced footing before throwing opportunities and choices your way.
When I let this perspective settle into my bones, I think I stepped further across the threshold of adulthood. Opportunities show up, and choices and chances blot your sightline according to their own time.
This is your life. Right now. It doesn’t wait for you to get back on your feet. Make your decisions, and then lean into them with all you’ve got.